Am I doing enough? Part 1

With almost everything in my life I ask the question am I doing enough or not. There are two areas in my life which I am currently asking this question. My relationships and my Career.

The relationships part is beginning to get on my nerves. Past relationships current relationships or possible relationships. When I had a girlfriend it was easier. Not that things were simpler, because they weren't. You get comfortable though which is one of those good and bad situations. You realize what your partner likes or dislikes and you can anticipate things about them. You can also take them for granted. You can get lazy and thats when things breakdown. When I was in my last relationship, I'm not sure if I asked myself if I was doing enough as much as I should have.

Now that I'm single, I am still dealing with that same question. Its just a bit different now. Before I would ask the question in regards to the relationship itself. Where as now I asking if doing enough for Lonnie (I realize I just referred to myself in third person and I am as disgusted as you are). Seriously, life's too short to not be fucking happy.

This idea isn't finished...

Kojis bar is so dead!!!!

If it were any slower here at my job I would be moving backwards. I'm not sure how thats possible but if it were thats what I would be doing.... Moving backwards. The best part about all of this has to be that I know I'm not making any money. I can't get good tips if there's no one here to leave a tip.

I guess technically this is my first official bartending shift, considering I was just picking up shift beforehand and for a first this is horrible someone please help me. Maybe I should start drinking I am behind a bar. Its the daytime tho so that might not be the best idea. I have one hour to go...

The most difficult drink I made today was a Bloody mary, and it was not difficult to make...

Audition to be Derek Jeter's Body Double.

So today I auditioned to be Derek Jeter's body double. It was for a National Gillette commercial. I had to do some basic stances, run around the bases and slide head first into home plate. Then just a couple intense looks into the camera and I was done. I was able to see the guys before me doing the same thing, which can be good and bad sometimes. When your actually reading lines watching someone else do it can throw you off a bit. At least i've noticed that. However for a physical audition like this, seeing someone do it gave me some good pointers on what to do and what not to do.

Now I'm not sure if that sounds simple but it's definitely not. First I am not nor have I ever been a baseball player. That being what it is, I feel that I am physically capable of doing what was required. I did watch a couple how to slide into home plate videos. I'm not sure if they helped at all. Mostly cause it was videos for little league players. Its all I could find...

For me this audition was a good mix of mental and physical preparedness. Stretching warming up getting my body ready and telling myself just do it. I might not be a pro at sliding into home plate but I can at like I know what I'm doing. Which was one of the comments that was made to me before my audition. The auditor pretty much said don't be afraid to act a bit. Even though it is involving something physical, try to show the emotion of baseball. I think that part came easy because every time I slid into home plate I crushed my balls. Why you ask did I crush my balls? Well they only had medium size cups at target at 9:30 last night so I went cup less. Not the best of ideas...

I am proud of myself for this if nothing else, I was able to put aside my hatred for the yankees for the betterment of my career.

Wish me luck!

Waking Up

Waking up is sometimes the hardest part of my day. Opening my eyes and getting up and moving. Fighting the idea of doing nothing and staying in bed all day. I know that I have to move I have to be productive. If I don't then what the hell did I move out here for? I could've done nothing at home on the East Coast. I'm still not doing enough it feels.

A Win Finally!

Oh does this feel good! Finally My Washington redskins were able to win one. Not just a win mind you but a win by double digits, a win where we scored more than 17 points! By the way did I mention it was against the Broncos a team that at this point in our season and at this point in their season, we are not supposed to win. Some would say its an upset. Not the diehard redskins fans though. Who god love'm sometimes don't live in a place I like to call reality. I am sometimes one of these very people that I speak of now.

Bottom line, I am glad to have a win. 3-6 by no way turns our season around but it gives a small glimmer of hope. A very very small glimmer of hope. But hope none the less. Also it kinda makes for a better sunday for me and for that matter a better week!

Go Skins! Thanks for fighting. I know it can be hard when everything is in shambles but this was a good team victory. Your fans thank you!

I have an Audition tomorrow!

Its not that I have never had an audition before its just that I haven't had an audition in a while hence my excitement. The thing is I'm not even acting, its a print add thing. I don't even care really. An audition is just that an audition. Its a chance to get out there and stand in front of those that make decisions. So yeah I'm just happy to be getting out there.

I'd like to think that positive energy helps sometime. Its possible that its just random but I have been trying to self submit myself more and work on my website and reel. Just try to do things to help myself out as an actor. By doing things for myself I can never really feel that I'm not doing enough. Though I can always do more. If that makes any sense at all?

Wish me luck or hope that I break my leg or something.

TOOL ACADEMY..

I'm not sure what is wrong with me but I actually enjoy watching the Tool Academy. I hate pretty much 100% of the reality crap thats on TV. I think its shit and it makes people look bad. Now they may be bad people but reality TV exploits them. Since when did scripted reality become actual reality. For the person that DVR's or Tivo's like a million reality shows a week, I say shame on you do something with your life please.

Enter Tool Academy, a show that for me at least has redeemable qualities. If you are able to look past the fact that some of the biggest asshole and douche bags known to man are on this show. You just might find a guy who has somewhere along the way entered douche town and gotten lost amongst the whores and losers. Yes it has the stupid challenges and dumb sessions with a therapist who I'm not sure is a therapist but she does have an accent so...

If you know anything about me you know that i despise Tools Douches whatever call them what you want! I HATE them. I do try to find redeeming qualities in people I like to be proven wrong. I think this show does that. It gives me hope that people can change that everyone is not a lost cause. Its also just fun to watch people doing stupid shit.

If I have contradicted myself at any point uh so what I do what I want!

Playing sick...

I may not have played sick but I worked sick, which sucks. The thing about working sick is no one really gives a shit. Customers don't care and I doubt the manager does either. You also can't appear sick. No one wants to see someone wiping their nose in a restaurant. It's just not cool.

I think about how tired and drained I was today and it makes me wonder how professional players do it. Although if you think about it they're in better physical shape than I am (or at least they should be). Also they get IV's and fluids and rub downs. Why can't I get an IV while I'm at work? Wheres the athletic trainer to rub me down or give me fluids? Maybe its too much to ask, but asking too much is what makes me an American!

The best thing about working sick is nothing! But if there were to be something I guess it would be that I know it will come to an end. No end is sweeter than the end of a work day. Unless maybe the end of your life if it happens to be shitty...

I do feel a bit better now. Ginger tea! Shave off fresh ginger root into boiling water and inhale as its simmering, add a bit of honey and drink! Its a blood thinner tho so don't take with tylenol.

Why 10:30?

Hey question for you McDonalds? Do you think you're better than everyone else? You think the rest of the food you heat up is so awesome that you don't have to serve your breakfast past 10:30. You're very wrong! Breakfast which is the most important meal of the day according to scientist and mothers, should be served all day! In the case of your dining establishment your breakfast is better than anything else you serve not including the McFlurry and McRib (which for some strange reason you know longer serve).

You assume that people are up so early in the morning that they can go and grab breakfast in the morning. What about those of us that work at night and use those precious hours of the morning to catch up on the sleep we so desperately desire. I hope that I can wake in time to rush to McD's to get a Bacon Egg and Cheese biscuit maybe a Sausage McMuffin and some watered down bag Oj. But alas I hit the snooze button too many times. I will say this the days when I able to be up in the morning for whatever reason, I look at is as a treat a bonus if you will. The effort that I put in to wake up in the monrning has paid off ten fold when i get a chance to enjoy your breakfast.

Why not just go somewhere else you ask. Cause i don't want to! McDonalds is a throw back to my childhood. Burger King isn't the worse thing in the world as long as you don't mind that greasy taste. As far as Jack in the Box goes... if I want to die i'll just shoot myself in the face, its less painful.

Sincerely,

Serve Breakfast All Day!!

Where else is she supposed to grab?

Hold the phone! I love football and I also love women. I'm not sure if I love the two things together but after seeing the picture above, I may change the way I feel about whatever feeling I'm not sure that I have about it. I know that doesn't really make any sense. If you knew me it might. Well no, it still wouldn't make any sense. The point is this I love women and football and some scientist has found a way to combine the two. Now I know there is already a football league for women out there but its not about the women being hot.. Its about them actually wanting to play football which means full pads and ugly. So this as you may have guessed is awesome. Call me sexist or whatever but its hot and fun. Sometimes isn't that ok? Shhh feminist. Please don't speak now. Thank you Lingerie Football League (LFL)

Hapless Halloween

Its hard to get upset as a redskins fan when your team doesn’t play. So to that I say thank you bye week. Thanks for giving me a relaxing Sunday. With nine games left I can come back with the fear that my team will have nine more games to play horrible in. It would be nice if they would put some effort in trying to win. However at this point I should keep my expectations low...

Go Redskins...?